Earthquake Fear, Cesarean & Birth of my 2nd child

Here I am sitting with my 22nd day old baby girl and having some remarkable luxuries of absolute Nepali household via post natal care, I still am in fear of impending aftershocks of previous earthquakes that has been hitting hard upon Nepal last month. Yes, it did affect me as well as a 38 weeks pregnant !! The unpreparedness beforehand was the major cause as we had never ever faced such level of earthquake ever since we existed !

After exact 1 month of the major earthquake, I was admitted in the hospital which we selected for its amazing services before. But here I was diagnosed in the tents, thanks to the effects of earthquake. Fear jolted inside me for impending Cesarean operation to be carried on the next day, will I be capable to deal with it in the tents ? Luckily, I was privileged again to get operated in the ground floor of the 14th floored hospital and they were prepared for the obvious fear of their patients. 

The point here I want to highlight is life simultaneously gives us many reasons to rejoice even amidst fear and trauma and we get sanity if we acknowledge those reasons and learn to move on.  I was still one of the few lucky ones in our country with hospital facilities and care of family members. As I write this, there are still many women and children deprived of major sanitation, care and other post natal services required in those districts which are severely affected from the Earthquake.

In some selfish way, I still fear of the upcoming shocks (if any) as a new  mother. I fear of the situation where there will be no food around, no sanitation for needy people in such natural disasters. Such situation largely affects pregnant women, those who have recently delivered, children and aged people. We can only hope for the best days and be prepared for any worse scenarios.

What I've learnt from these earthquakes is life is such a precious gift and being alive to experience different facets of it should be the greatest achievements. We may not have the best of everything but we still can rise from whatever we have. Having instant faith in our strength and capabilities and working on them are the greatest assets. We will definitely bounce back. Thanks for reading me after a hiatus. I wish I could update you regularly and as a new mother again, I can only WISH so at least for some time. :-)

Worst Face of Mankind - Peshawar Attack

Last 3 days have been terrible for me. Not only to maintain positiveness within but also for staying calm and peaceful. It simply refers to the cowardish Lindt Café hostage in Sydney, Australia and above all, worst face of mankind we have faced till now that occured in Peshawar, Pakistan. Terrorism has no religion and repeatedly fail to understand the idea of reaching out to ‘Jannat’ (Heaven) referred by the so called terrorists. Even they will have to answer for the cowardish acts they have been doing to their God, wont they ?

This blog is about Life style, a regular happenings of our life and I can not jot down a single word of happiness these days due to those inhuman and coward attack on children. Everytime I try to maintain my inner peace and utter some positive words, I become speechless. Is God on leave or forgot to control those who are not good enough for the sake of humanity !

I along with this Blog, pay heartfelt condolences and deep sympathy upon very sad and untimely demise of those beautiful children who were in uniform and at school to pursue their education. I don’t have words to console for the broken parents and people dealing with the fateful incident on their face. I don’t know how to react and my anger has no limits. Thoughts have been suppressed viewing the dead bodies of children which surpassed the 100 number. Yes, it is 142 till now !!

This is the most vulnerable time for tackling Terrorism which needs urgent treatment. Yes, treatment because it is more dangerous than Ebola, AIDS and even cancer as it wont spare a single person for any 20 days, 1 year or 2 months…..Once we are captured, we will see deaths, many deaths around and some brutal ones like in Peshawar. Can you imagine the fearful face of the innocent bundle of joys before being shot at head ! I am disturbed, mentally disturbed.

This blog will never able to wish a Very Happy New Year ahead to you readers and this is not beginning of a good year as well. Because, we are mourning. Mourning for those who lost their treasured lives and were 'still to be' blossomed because of some coward people who enjoy seeing blood.

Lets hope, our children are safe, lets make their future better and work together for it. Humanity is not limited within border and this is and should be a single religion we follow globally. Rest of the things are only personal choices. And ultimately, we are given beautiful life to enjoy, not for destruction. Aren’t we ?

Musings of a Style Enthusiast

I've been continuously asked these days why didn't I take up to fashion and interior courses! Instead of giving some comments while answering them, I ponder into deep thoughts as it was what I wanted to be in real. I loved style, I loved nature, I loved interior, putting things together for a beautiful looking result. 

And I still heart all of it till now. But hey, I am into banking profession as I was a management graduate before. So, does my passion and love for Immaculate style, Getting ready for any event, putting things together and home decor need comma/full stop? In my case, I don't think so.

Yes, there are many people in this world today who get to study as per their personality and follow their instinct through their jobs. But how many?? For me, I was brought up in a tiny small village looking town (with full of life I would say) with dreams in my growing mind. Lack of adequate courses matching my personality; I took up to Management as many of us still do. And it has turned me a Banker today. If not a banker, I would have been a Bureaucrat, a Government Officer or something like that; but no....never a Style maven fashion enthusiast, Stylist or Designer or Interior Decorator. 

Now, my profession has turned me into a person with patience and I think twice before I speak. These are the best things we get in people related jobs. You grow with all the persons and happenings around you and that is same with me as well. Deep inside me, there is still a fashion maven, style lover who lets her wings whenever I am off duty :-).

I would like to applause those who fearlessly take risk of changing profession and get start from scratch. For love of ones' personality, for the way they are, for their inner peace; change is what they prefer. While I stay away from thoughts of getting into new profession due to fear of dependency. I am independent and I love the fact. 

Having said that, I will still continuously respect inner ME and follow my heart. Style and Passion for anything Never dies. 

Is your thought different of mine or you agree with me ? Thoughts are to be shared :-)